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What Jesus Is Teaching me Today; …Right NOW (30)
LESSON THIRTY: “The Word That Won’t Go Away”
Which Spirit get's separated here? Did Awareness stop?
As you have already learned, you have the authority to speak I AM only when I AM is speaking through you; you are not always in that state. You needn’t be confused about this; although I do intend it as a corrective to help you; not to hinder you from moving into the awareness of who you are.
That you are a spirit from the beginning is who you are, your identity; a part of the whole of I AM. I also explained the separation to you that occurs when the awareness stops. It is what happens during those times when your purpose in human form overtakes your conscious AND/OR subconscious awareness. This is neither a “bad” thing nor a “good” thing, this is a case of when, and “it is what it is” becomes a practical truth which you need to heed.
Don't we all have forsaken moments now and then?
DO NOT CONFUSE THE TWO or you wind up being in silly human arguments. Consider that it was reported that I said “take this cup from me, nevertheless YOUR will rather than mine be done.” That was not a statement of I AM. Will you see this in the same separateness as you are able to see “Why have YOU forsaken me?” Both are statements of the human condition. THIS IS NOT THEOLOGICAL ARGUMENT! This is I AM declaring this to be so and exactly the reason those who resist the difference are walking in separation.
While, admittedly, I would have made the foregoing as a statement of “one perspective” of many divergent religious views, I, in no way, feel “justified” in thinking that I already knew this because the statement would have been made from a position of separation; those who continually feel the need to argue against my “dualistic” stance take heed of my “confession” here.
In other words I’m still waiting for the “amazing insight” I promised in the previous LESSON. It is definitively a clarification for me; a clarification I certainly wouldn’t refer to as mundane or “ho-hum,” but not exactly beyond my previous understanding either.
Today, Sunday, is the slowest day of the week for e-mail “traffic.” Instead of the normal daily flow of seventy-five and more that I feel need to be answered (even though sometimes, frankly, I don’t want to) because of the content; today I have had only about fifteen for which I felt any such urgency to respond.
Which one are you, the one asking the question or the dog?
The first was from a fellow to whom I had sent an “advance” copy of LESSON TWENTY-NINE. To me he is one of the most deeply spiritual people on the planet …a man about whom I have no doubt the “hand” of our SPIRIT-PARENT guides him in everything he does – he wrote me sometime in the wee hours of the morning accusing me of being dogmatic and strongly suggested that I “didn’t know what I was talking about.” He thought (incorrectly) that some of the LESSON was purposely directed toward him and about a strong doctrinal position he holds about a certain matter.
Since it really was the farthest thing from my mind, I could (and did) tell him honestly that it wasn’t true and since I felt no defensiveness about the accusation I told him truthfully that I was grinning at his sensitivity “…but if the shoe fits to wear it,” I wrote. Then I felt a nudge to put any tendency I have toward being doctrinally dogmatic about anything on the altar as a “sacrifice” and get rid of it. I told him I was sorry if I had offended him and that was not the intent of sending it to him at all.
He wrote back in a light-hearted manner letting me off the hook and, per usual, the thing was settled between us. I was still left with the feeling, dogmatic – who me,?
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There goes Brad with big words again, hmmm...o..s..t.en..i..b..le???
Another e-mail was a poignant letter from a friend lamenting about one of his daughters leaving with her husband for a foreign country, apparently for several years.
I wrote back to him, truthfully telling how his letter, which he circulates almost every week, had moved me deeply. I kept thinking about it for several hours and realized he hadn’t given their reason for going (to Iceland, no less).
I wrote again, later, asking what was the ostensible reason for their going and for how long was the commitment? I was about to click on “send” when I became bothered about using the word ostensible …a bit lofty, I thought, for a friend as close as he is. It bothered me to the point I just left the note to him sitting on my e-mail and went off to take care of some other things. I came back to it about an hour later and the word really bothered me as being phony. I deleted it and just left the message as “what is the reason” she and her husband are going? Again, about to click on “send” and still felt a twinge of discomfort.
What’s going on, I asked out loud.
Ostensibly Dogmatic or full of esoteric insight?
I want you to use this word for your understanding that all humans have “ostensible” reasons for doing what they do. The purposes of I AM get worked out in the process. This is the dogmatism I want you to leave behind. Your purposes are ostensible; MY purposes are being worked out in you. While what you were accused of being dogmatic over, was not true, the reason the accusation bothered you is that you have been and are quire dogmatic about I AM not working out every detail in your life. You are committed to being in and of MY will, it is your choice and because of that choice you are chosen to write and speak what I give you – and often without even knowing my purposes.
Now this may not be an AMAZING INSIGHT to you, but it certainly is for me and, after all, that is what this series is all about …stuff that Jesus is teaching me NOW. Well, David (the guy who said I was being dogmatic in the first place), see what you started… THANK YOU for a word that also wouldn’t go away.
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